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 Rain is pouring down outside, the millions of drops hitting the ground all playing a part in the quiet, tuneless symphony. Usually, that soothing noise relaxes me to sleep, but not tonight. Tonight, I can't stop thinking about someone. Kind of funny, actually. The high and mighty Digimon Kaizer, who inside is just a lonely little boy, is finally redeemed, only to fall hopelessly in love with a little green bug. Well, not just any little green bug... a little green caterpillar Digimon. My partner, Wormmon. I'd love to how how and why it happened. I know when; when I first met him. It just took me a long time to realize it. In fact, never mind, I know why I fell in love with him. Even though he's a virus Digimon, he's one of the most loving, devoted, kind-hearted people I know. Even if he is a Digimon. Even if there is no way it could ever happen. Really, how is there any hope for me here? I don't even know if Digimon feel love, let alone feel it for humans. Besides, even if he were to be attracted to a human, what if he only likes girls? It's a thoroughly depressing set of thoughts; but if nothing else, I have the satisfaction of knowing that he'll always be loyal to me, always be at my side. Even if it's not in the same way I want it to be. Sigh. Midnight and I'm wide awake. I toss and turn a couple times, before sighing loudly in frustration. Damn you, Wormmon, get out of my head so I can sleep. And dream about you, maybe... Yeesh. Have I got it bad or what? I roll over again. Closing my eyes, I'm just managing to empty my mind of thoughts when a shy, timid voice whispers from the foot of my bed. "Ken-chan?" Sayonara, sleep. Sighing, I open my eyes. "Hai, Wormmon?" Oh, gods, couldn't he walk AROUND me instead of on TOP of me? I fight a blush, feeling those ten little legs skittering up the length of my body. "Are you okay, Ken-chan?" "Depends on your definition of okay," I mumble. He nuzzles me gently, and I know I'm blushing. "Is anything bothering you? You can tell me, Ken-chan. You can tell me anything." Yes there is, and no I can't. Sorry. Doesn't it just figure? I almost take over an entire world, and I don't have the courage to tell the one I love about my feelings. "No, Wormmon," I say softly. "Nothing's bothering me. Nothing at all." "Ken-chan," he sighs, before climbing off of me and snuggling next to me. "You're lying. I know you are. You lied to yourself all that time you were the Kaizer... I learned to recognize the signs." He looks at me with those bright blue eyes I think I could very easily get lost in. "I won't push it, at least not for now. When you're ready to talk about it, whatever it is, tell me. I won't run away. I won't turn my back." He closes his eyes. "I'll always stay by your side." I gaze at him for a little while, and finally, unable to resist, I risk putting one arm around the tiny Digimon. He seems to actually relax at the touch, sighing softly and pressing a tiny bit closer to me. It seems so perfect, so beautiful... me lying here with Wormmon pressed so warmly against me, the rain outside still singing its tuneless song... Before long, I'm slipping into sleep, to dream hopeless dreams of a future with Wormmon.
I slowly open my eyes, and blush as I find myself still snuggled up against Ken-chan. I remember back when he was the Kaizer, I used to take every opportunity I could get to get close to him, to touch him. I'd crawl up on his feet, nuzzle his ankles, any small sign of affection... getting kicked away in response. It was disheartening, but it didn't stop my love for him... Not for the Kaizer, but for the sad, kind, lonely boy imprisoned in his heart. It took the most extreme of actions to finally free him, but just seeing him as Ken, not the Kaizer, but as my sweet Ken-chan, was more than enough reward for the pain I endured at Chimeramon's hands. Ever since then, he's never pushed me away when I get near him. He doesn't know why I act like this, though. He just thinks I'm an affectionate little bug that likes to snuggle. Because I'm a Digimon; that's my excuse. Animals rub up against humans, nuzzle them, sit in their laps... And Digimon, to humans, are animals. I sigh sadly, pressing a little closer to Ken-chan to try and ease the pain in my heart... and feeling him hold me tighter in return. I jump at the sudden affection, and look up at his face with wide eyes. ... Oh... He's still asleep. His heartbeat and breath are slow and deep; I should have noticed that. He's dreaming... and I don't dare hope it's about me. "Wormmon..." What? I must need some of that coffee stuff Ken-chan likes. I couldn't have heard him right... I hope I did, though. I mean, Ken-chan mumbling my name in his sleep? Too good to be true! "Oh, Worm-chan..." His voice makes me melt. Even though the words are slurred a bit, that soft voice of his sounds so, so loving, that I dare to hope. He's dreaming about me! Me! "I love you..." I think I'm going to faint! I wish I had arms and lips so I could hug him and kiss him! Is this what he was worried about last night? I wish I'd known, so I could have told him right then that there was nothing at ALL to worry about, that I feel the same way and always have... "I love you too, Ken-chan," I can't help saying, brushing my mouth against his. Not quite a kiss, but close enough... It's the best this little bug body can manage. Sighing happily, I stroke his soft, pale cheek with one claw, pressing my mouth to his again in another near-kiss... And Ken-chan's eyes snap open. From the way they widen at the sight of me so close, expressing my affection in such a... distinct way, I feel a cold fear trickling down my back and settling in my stomach as it belatedly occurs to me that dreams are strange, random things and his dream just now probably meant nothing... Almost tenderly, he pushes my face away from his, and my heart breaks. No! Please don't reject me now! At least don't hold this against me... "Wormmon... what... why..." His voice is full of conflicting emotions. I'm sorry, Ken-chan, I was an idiot, I'm so sorry, how could you ever love a little bug like me... All those words and more fly through my head, and what I say is entirely different. "Because I love you," I say. If anything, his expression becomes even more shocked. I'm ready for him to shove me away and disown me as his partner, when a different expression crosses his face - an expression of joy. "R... really...?" he whispers. "You really... you love me?" Blushing shyly, I nod. "I always have..." A pause. Then... "Oh, Wormmon!!" Before I know it, he has his arms around me, hugging me tightly, and... ki... I feel dizzy... Me kissing him in his sleep is one thing, but him kissing me while he's wide awake is quite another. Ooh... I close my eyes, relaxing into his kiss, as suddenly nothing else in either world matters. After what seems like forever, but still not long enough, Ken-chan pulls away from me just slightly, stroking the side of my face and smiling at me lovingly. "Ken-chan," I sigh happily. "You're a good kisser, you know that?" Aww, he's blushing! He looks so cute! "A-arigatou, Worm-chan," he says, blushing. I melt at the use of the endearment. "Just telling the truth, my Ken-chan," I murmur, nuzzling him. He says nothing, just pulls me closer to him. For a while, neither of us say anything, happy just to be near each other. By this time, I think I'm only half awake. Listening to the soft rhythm of his heartbeat is lulling me back to sleep. "Ken-chan?" "Hai?" "Can we go the the digital world today?" He looks at me. "Of course. Any particular reason?" I blush. "Well... I was thinking that I could evolve to Stingmon... and take you for a flight..." He smiles sweetly at me. "If you want to, we could go right now." "Really?" "Sure!" He gets up and puts me on his shoulder, then climbs down the ladder from his bed. Crossing the floor to his computer, he turns it on and brings up the gate program, holding up his Digivice to the screen. Within moments, we've both been downloaded to my world. From there, it's not long until I've changed into the powerful
Stingmon, soaring across the digital skies, holding my partner... my love...
flying towards the future we both dreamed of.
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